Bonsoir!

I have to fill you in about yesterday. At around 5:00pm I was on the bed listening to Smashing Pumpkins with Rachel. Cliff was on the floor reading some train brochure and I motioned him with my eyes to leave. We listened to “Today” over and over, and halfway through it I just leaned over and kissed her. I could tell she was surprised but I wouldn’t stop. No way. We kissed until song 4 was done and then she asked if we could play “Today” once more (in French, of course). We held each other through the song and then I had to go out to Anouschka’s grandparents’ house for dinner. I said goodbye and kissed her again before I left and she said she’d wait up for me possibly.

So we went to her grandparents’ house and had some beers, ate, and sat and talked . Well, they talked for over an hour so I was pissed. Finally, we left and they dropped me off first since it was almost 11:00pm. I walked in and waited for about 10 minutes and then figured she was asleep so I went to Anouschka’s room and listened to ‘Time After Time’ for about an hour. Everyone came home and I called home for the first time in at least a week but nothing was new.

I saw some pictures of the Frank’s gang from last year and it made me so sad. It was so happy back then, and everyone got along and knew who they were. But now everyone has changed so damn much…

I stayed up late last night by myself and wrote. I miss Jay and Floyd. The real ones.

Today I woke up at noon and washed my hair again. Rachel came home at about 1:00pm and we started listening to music.  We kissed a lot and even though I can’t talk to her I somehow knew that I had better make it the best, and that she was thinking the same thing.

Well, three hours passed and I loved every minute of it, but then everyone came home from a bike ride and Christine came over so we sat and talked for a while. I found out Rachel was up until 11:15pm but c’est pas grave (it’s no big deal). We came to Nathalie’s and ate and talked and now I just can’t wait until tomorrow.

Oh yeah, Rachel might be going to Italy and Greece with us. C’est cool Raoule!

I likeove [sic] her so much. Aujourd hui est la plus grand jouer… (“Today is the greatest day”)

I just wish I was able to see her more…