Yeah- this is pretty fucking cool. I’m fucking sick of Nathalie’s.  Not the people, but the atmosphere. Everyone wonders why I think of Rachel so fucking much but then I get thrown around downtown and at Nathalie’s for 3 or 4 days at a time so I never get to fucking see her. I fucking hate this.

Yesterday we went to downtown Lausanne again and stupid shit- we took a paddleboat out on Lake Geneva (here they call it Lake Leman) for an hour and then came back to Nathalie’s of fucking course,

Then last night we went to a graduation party on the beach. At first it was entertaining- I got to smoke some hash and drank a lot of beer. The plan was to sleep at Anouschka’s so I was cool, but then they decided “Hey! Here’s a new idea: Let’s sleep at Nathalie’s!” Fuckers.

So I took a walk on the beach and sat and watched hundreds of people have fun and skinny-dippers entertaining themselves. When I walked back everyone was pissed and wondering where I went- like they really fucking cared.

I feel like I’m their little puppy- no mind of my own.

Fuck me! Fuck this Fuck everyone Fuck my mind Fuck my opinions Fuck my ideas Fuck my dreams Fuck everything about me No mind of my own I’m just a fucking sheep Please let me cling to you!

This was my life. This was my life. This was my life. This was my life. I’m not like them but I can pretend.

I wish I was like you

Easily amused…

Find my nest of salt

Everything is my fault…

I’ll take all the blame

Aqua sea foam shame

Sunburn with freezer burn

Choking on the ashes of her enemies…

Gee- guess what we’re doing tonight?! We get to stay at Nathalie’s again! We get to sit here at her fun apartment until 8:00pm so she can come home and be with us. Isn’t that great?! I’m cumming in my pants just thinking about all the fun things we’ll do tonight. Let’s see, we can’t watch T.V. because it’s all in French, we can’t listen to music or fucking breathe the wrong way or the neighbors will complain about all the cool noise! What a lucky life I have. And for food we have more bread,, as if I’m not constipated enough from all the other stale bread I get to eat. And I love not being able to Rachel for four days at a time! Instead, I get to watch Cliff and Tara groom the shit out of each other and listen to them make fun of me for thinking about Rachel too much. You must really envy me, because my life is so fucking cool!

Today is the greatest day I’ve ever known.

It’s 12:25am now and we sat here at Nat’s house all day. We went to the Greek guy’s house (Christof) and drank a few beers. Yum! We could have gone to the laser light show party outside but everyone was under 12 or over 40. No thank you.

Tomorrow I get to see Rachel  final-fucking-ly! Anouschka’s getting sick of me talking about her but I don’t care. I miss her sooooooo much. Tomorrow is the last time I will be able to see her for a while so I better make the best of it. I’m so in like with her…

PS. Tara burned a hole in the bathtub here with incense but what do you expect leaving three air-headed Americans alone in an apartment for a full day? I’m surprised the walls are still standing!

“I am feeling really stupid now.” (Chuckle)

By the way, we almost got arrested for shoplifting at the store today. I had to empty everything out of my sack to prove it wasn’t us (me et Cliff).



This is the Jet d’Eau (“water-jet”), which is a fountain rising 140 meters (459 feet) from Lake Geneva



Anoushka enjoying the paddleboat ride on Lake Geneva (AKA "Lake Leman")